PANDORA'S BOX OF WONDER.

IT HAS BECOME DIFFICULT OF LATE TO UPDATE MY BELOVED BLOG. PEOPLE CAN READ A PERSONS BLOG, SEE WHAT THEY WEAR EACH DAY OF THE WEEK, SEE WHERE THEY SHOP, SEE WHAT THEY'RE EATING BUT STILL NEVER REALLY KNOW THEM. I ENJOY FASHION. VERY MUCH. HOWEVER IT IS HARD FOR ME TO BE UPDATING WITH MY RECENT LIFE STYLE CHANGES. I AM NOT YOUR TYPICAL 20 YEAR OLD GIRL FROM LONDON. I'M TYPICAL IN THE SENSE THAT I ADORE ALL THINGS FABULOUS, LOVE SHOES AND ANYTHING SHINY, BUT THE CHOCES I HAVE MADE HAVE BROUGHT ME TO THIS POINT IN TIME WHEN I HAVE HAD TO STOP AND THINK, WHAT AM I DOING? I HAVE STARTED CARING FULL TIME FOR MY DISABLED PARTNER. HE HAS BEEN IN A WHEEL CHAIR FOR 6 YEARS NOW, WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER FOR 2. DONT GET ME WRONG, IT WAS A BIG, ACTUALLY, HUGE DESCISION TO BE WITH HIM BUT THAT CHOICE WAS TAKEN OUT OF MY HANDS WHEN I FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM. I DONT MEAN TO PUT A DOWNER ON ANYTHING, ESPECIALLY WHEN I ADMIRE SO MANY BLOGGERS OUT THERE. IN A WAY I AM ENVIOUS OF THEM. THEY'RE PARTNERS TAKE PHOTOGRAPHS OF THEM FOR THEIR BLOG AND THEY'LL NEVER REALISE HOW LUCKY THEY ARE. I'M HOPING WITH ALL GOOD INTENTIONS THAT I WILL, HOPEFULLY IN THE NOT TOO DISTANT FUTURE, BE ABLE TO BLOG. I DIDN'T WANT TO LEAVE MY PAGE BLANK WITH NO EXPLANATION. I THINK I'VE DONE THAT.

HOPEFULLY SPEAK TO YOU SOON.

WITH LOVE,

NICKY.

WHEN IT RAINS, IT POURS.

CLOGS ARE THE MAIN WORD ON MY LIPS AT THE MOMENT. I WOULD KILL FOR A PAIR. IT SEEMS THAT ALL THE IMPORTANT PEOPLE IN THE FASHION WORLD ARE WEARING THEM AND I FEEL OH SO LEFT OUT. MY FAVOURITE HAVE TO BE THESE KURT GEIGER PAIRS - YES, ALL OF THEM! IF I HAD TO CHOOSE IT WOULD HAVE TO BE THE PAIR ON THE BOTTOM RIGHT. I'M LOVING THE STUD DETAIL ON ALL OF THEM, BUT THE CLOSED TOE SEEMS TO BE CALLING OUT TO ME. IF ONLY I WERE A RICH GIRL.

SMOKE AND MIRRORS.

I dont smoke.

Never have, never will.

However, when I see photo's like this, they seem to have an effortless chic-ness (is that even a word!?) about them.

It usually seems to look even better when a cigarette is sticking out of model Erin Wassons mouth.

BEAUTIFUL BROGUES.

I'm totally in love with brogues.

They look classy with a hint of edgy fashion. I love them with skinny jeans and a little ankle showing?

SEQUINS? YOU HAD ME AT 'S'.

This is currently my favourite outfit.

I love the headband, I think it's an under rated accessory.

The detail on this dress is exquisite. I love how the gold is bright and I adore the flecks of red that have been stitched into it.

I think I would wear it with a tough pair of boots to make it a bit more comfortable looking for day time.

However, ankle boots are practically my middle name at the moment so definatly a smart choice for night time.

HORSES, HEARTS AND HEAVY CHAINS.

How I adore thee.

JUST LIKE A PRINCESS.

I would sleep, eat and dream in this dress.

We love and miss Alexander McQueen.

SHINY THINGS ARE ALWAYS BEST.

Crystal encrusted.

Worn on top of a lace leotard?

Yes please.

BRING ME TO LIFE.

The love of my life.

RING-A-DING-DING.

Beautiful, just beautiful.

xo xo

ALEXANDER THE GREAT.

What an outfit.

TWO ARE BETTER THAN ONE.

Ashley Olsen looking her normal gorgeous self.

Love the bag, I'm strangely drawn to black leather.

The ripped shorts are shorts after my own heart.

The sunglasses are beautiful although, I would be unable to wear them as the bridge of my nose is far too wide(!)

And finally, the headband. I'm not particularly one for hats, but headbands on the other hand... Throw it on and strut out the door.

xo xo

HITS YOU RIGHT BETWEEN THE EYES.

xo xo

HAPPY MARCH.

Some images just astonish me.

xo xo

YOUR EYES SEE STRAIGHT THROUGH TO MY SOUL.

Taylor, Taylor, Taylor...

My fascination with you grows.

I WANT YOUR UGLY, I WANT YOUR DISEASE...

Congratulations to Lady Gaga!

I dont think anyone was more deserving. She seemed so overwhelmed when giving her speech. I think it was great for everyone to see her obviously so happy to have won.

xo xo

MUST BE LOVE... LOVE... LOVE.

I've decided that their beauty infuriates me. Personally, I'm not a huge fan of the grungy look that Mary-Kate is currently sporting but damn do they look great.

I've chosen Nickel Grey and Candy Pink for my dressing room. Gripping stuff I know. But to be honest that is what my life is revolving around at the moment. Picking up brand spanking new wardrobes, mirrors and such this week. Can't wait.

New bucket handbag picked up from H&M. I'm in love.

Speaking of love, how was your Valentines? Mine was very much filled with love : )

xo xo

SPRING AWAKENING

I cannot describe the feeling I get when dressed in a floral get-up. I always feel so fresh and girly.

I think this spring/summer I'll be trying this look using inspirations from the likes of Rihanna and Stephanie Pratt, by teaming my floral top/dress with leather ankle boots.

I do tend to feel younger aswell, for most people this is great but being 5'3'' and constantly told I look like a 15 year old... I don't think I need to add fuel to the fire ;-)

Happy beginning of February to you! I hope this month brings you much deserved happiness.

Under two weeks until Valentines day which means under two weeks until the start of lent... Goodbye crisps and chocolate :'-(

PUT A RING ON IT.

featuring the lillies i got on my birthday.

It was my birthday over a week ago and they still look beautiful. Lillies are my favourite flower. I usually get gasps when I say that because they are the funeral/death flower. How silly.

Anybody been watching Glee? The football scene with "All the single ladies" was so funny!

xo xo

NOT AS EASY AS IT LOOKS.

navy blue blazer with padded shoulders (cant remember), floral scarf (topshop)

black chiffon ribbon (hand made), pearl bracelet (H&M), black bangle (H&M)

triple strand metal bracelet (topshop), long chain necklace (cant remember?)

I cannot seem to be seperated from wearing so many accessories on my arms, that by the end of the day, they feel as though they may fall off! People keep commenting on my apparent 'jingling noise' I make when I move. More is more :)

Recently I feel that I am leaning towards a way of dressing which is new to me. I kind of feel drawn towards the look of Taylor Momsen. How would you describe it? I think that grunge may be a little too harsh a word, as she wears pinks and pastel colours. She seems to have mastered the way of dressing which sends out the impression 'I just threw this on whilst blind-folded' but in reality? I'm sure that wasn't the case. They say that in order to achieve the nude look of make up, you have to put quite a bit on. Is it the same attitude when dressing? The more you want to look relaxed/slouchy/casual, means the more effort you must put in?

Currently listening to Fashion - Lady GaGa

Keep smiling :)

xo xo

SHAKEN TO THE CORE.

I'm not sure how anyone else feels about this subject, but if I'm honest, I've never been 100% happy with my face/body. Buy who is? I've had serious thoughts about a nose job as I was always picked on for it at school (nicknames like miss piggy stuck with me for years). So, normally I would completely sympethise with anyone who is so unhappy with themselves physically to actually pay to have it changed, but when I see things like this? It makes me question the world that we live in. I personally think that there was absolutely nothing worng with Heidi before her surgeries and it just makes me wonder, is this the kind of expectations that people are putting out there?

Here is the list of the procedures she had:

mini brow lift

botox in forehead and frown area

nose job

revision fat injections in cheeks

nasolabial folds and lips chin reduction

neck liposuction

ears pinned back

breast augmentation

revision liposuction on waist, hips and inner and outer thighs

and buttock augmentation

I know it may seem strange to be reading this on a blog about fashion and other materialistic things, but I just think this is wrong in some way.

In the end, it's about inner beauty.

IT'S A SLIPPERY SLOPE.

Well, I am now officially the big two zero. It's an odd feeling. Like it hasn't actually set in yet, however it did go to say something yesterday along the lines of "Oh, I'm so going to be doing that by the time I'm twen..." Oops! Other than that? It's been pretty great. My friend is still assuring me that I look 14, so it's all good from where I stand : )

I decided to take a few picks, pretty much just randomly around the house. The first two are pictures of a handbag I bought back in May and it has seen daylight once... I know, I know. I get enough lecture from my mum, dad, boyfriend, brothers... I dont need it from you too! Anyway, it's exterior is cusioned leather. And interior is, I'm not quite sure but I love the turqiose-y colour inside. It's not very big which to be honest I think may be the reason for lack of usage. Although as you can see form picture two, I was carrying much on my person today so all it contains is my purse, sunglasses, umbrella and ofcourse, Ipod.

The third picture is of the collection of perfumes I received for my birthday last weekend (Givency is M.I.A). Featuring; Chanel no.5, Daisy by Marc Jacobs and Kate Moss. They are all stunning. I'm not one for a subtle scent and theses fall under that category. I like to use a few spritzes and bein my way rather than having to use half a bottle to have the slightest scent. I do believe that perfume is an underated present to give. I think that there are so many out there that it is rare to find any woman when asked the question "What is your favourite perfume?"  replies anything other than listing off three different ones.

The fourth features a necklace that my mum hunted down and bought me at Christmas. It has a Jammie Dodger-like pendant on it. This isn't as random as it may seem! I do believe that I have a slight obsession with them - lets just say that my second gift from my boyfriend was a pack of them for my birthday!. And also in the picture, is a coaster that my dad bought me so long ago I cant even remember. Stating "If the shoe fits, buy it in every colour." I dont think he realised that when he gave me this, it would start a chain reaction which would - after years of practice - turn into a lust so strong that he's lost count on how many pairs he has purchased for me. And the fifth is a postcard that my Grandma sent me when she was on holiday for a long time and I kept it without even thinking. She was back within weeks but that postcard still sits in my room now. Weird.

The sixth photo is of Ella. We have two dogs. Both black labrador crosses, Ella is crossed with a spaniel (hence the big ears!) and Roxy is crossed with a sausage dong (oh the jokes we've had!). Anyway, so basically Ella hates me. I know what you're thinking, dogs dont hate anyone, they're loving animals, so I'll give you some evidence. We got her as a puppy when I was 10 years old and she was the sweetest little thing. Then as she grew, she realised that the only person standing in the way of all my mum's attention and affection 24/7 was... Me. Now, if I hug my mum Ella barks. If I give mum a little tap for a sarcastic comment, Ella barks. If I call Ella she remains still. If anyone else calls her, she comes running. See, I wasn't making this up! I love her all the same and she's still a beautiful dog... I just cant get close enough to her to show her : /

I hope your week is going well so far, the snow has finally melted here, but the temperature doesn't seem to have risen. I'm just thankful that I'm not walking with the continual fear that any step... Could be my last!

I'M YOUR BIGGEST FAN.

Lada Gaga, what a star.

IT'S TIME TO GROW UP, LITTLE GIRL.

Featuring Lindsay Lohan. I have some sort of slight obsession with her. I find her fascinating. Her dress sense seems so... I just threw this on, but she always looks great. Her hair sometimes looks like... I've just rolled out of bed, but look fantastic and I couldn't name another person who could pull it off. Her acting career has definatly been varied but she is SO talented. One of my favourite celebrities.

I'm getting withdrawel symptoms from lack-of shopping. You know what I mean? The shakes, feeling very sorry for yourself and bored with everything you own? Just me?! I haven't bought anything in such a long time that I am now starting to feel like I would forget what stores to go in. Things seem to be looking up though. I've heard that the job I was supposed to start in October ( >:( - my angry face! ) might be ready for me next month - pause for your excitement for me!. This not only means that I will once again be earing a wage, it means that I will be moving in with my boyfriend and that everything is going to change. It seems so far away until the words escape my mouth or I read it back to myself when I type it. And it in no way feels r e a l yet. I think that even if I wait until I'm 30, I wouldn't want to leave the house that I've been raised in. 20 years is a long time so I am facing some anxiety issues at the moment, as I do with EVERYTHING in my life. My boyfriend on the other hand is counting the seconds which is very helpful and lovely.

Four Three days in counting.

I will no longer be in my teen years. Eeek. What will be my excuse then for childish demands or chaotic behaviour?? Everyone I have known has always said that I have always been much maturer than my age and now I feel as though I am mentally the age that I should be. I dont feel like a 45 year old inside a 16 year olds body. Am I having a pre-mid life crisis?! Only 20 or so years early. I think that 2010 is going to be a big year for me. Actually, thats an understatement. I think it's going to be huge. Am I prepared you ask? No. I am the sort of person who always expects the worst. The worst in people and life. This is looked upon as a bad thing but I disagree. I think that if you are always prepared for the worst, then if it happens you shrug it off because you expected it, and if it doesn't then you can smile and wait for the next kick up the backside. I was kind of hoping that I would grow out of this "negativity" as it's so often called, no such luck yet. But I'll keep you posted. Anyone know of a fairy god mother or genie I can borrow?? I'll be your bestest friend ;)

I've realised that I need to decide on a colour sceme for my new room. I'll paint you a little picture (punn intended!). It's an average size room, hard wood floor, a little alcove that can be used to store things inside, a mini radiator that is pretty much me-sized, and currently is painted 'white chocolate'. (Will try to post some pics to give you a visual) This room it going to be where all my things will go. As I will be sharing a bedroom with my boyfriend, all my clothes, make up, shoes, handbags... You get the picture, will be going into what is now being called my 'dressing room' or 'gigntic walk in wardrobe'. I'm not complaining in the slightest but it is making me scratch my head when thinking of the possibilities. For years my bedroom has been either pink or lilac so I'd like to steer away from those. I also don't think that a heavy or dark colour would be a good choice as it might make the room look tiny. To be honest, I think that I'm leaning towards a dove grey or just plain old white. HELP.

ANOTHER YEAR, NONE THE WISER.

A happy 2010 to you!

My new year's was spent with family, watching the fireworks on the television... Gripping stuff. I can't believe how fast the pat 3 weeks has gone. December seems to fly by every year and then vefore you know it, it's January. I'm some what excited as it is exactly two weeks until my 20th birthday. Just typing that makes me feel old. I keep referring to it as 'I've passed my prime!'. Deep inside, I dont think that I really believe that as the next one will be the big 21st. I guess what I feel is... Grown up.

Scary.

I'm thinking of painting my nails black tomorrow. I've had black nail varnish sitting in my room for about 3 months and haven't been quite brave enough to test it. I've read that 'It is quite on trend' and 'Goes with everything'. I believe the latter statement is why I am so often drawn to black footwear. Although I do rock out a red pair every now and then ; )

I have finished the first season of Gossip Girl. Wow. It's brilliant. I didn't relaise what I have been missing until I noticed that I hadn't left my room for 5 hours... Oops. I'm now totally jealous of the style of the upper east side, the gorgeous Penn Badgely and TOTALLY obsessed with Blake Lively's hair. What a wonderful shade of green I have been sporting.

I was gifted a pair of tan ankle booties for Christmas. I kinda knew about them as I was taken to the store to choose them, but no one can pull off a better "Oh my god, thankyou!" than I. I've not quite decided on what to wear them with yet, I'm thinking maybe something to do with a floral dress. I'm leaning towards floral and pirate style booties lately. You know, Sienna Miller type stuff. I'm due to make my latest appointment at the hair dressers in the next week or so, and I'm hovering towards a just been to the beach look.

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