IT'S TIME TO GROW UP, LITTLE GIRL.

Featuring Lindsay Lohan. I have some sort of slight obsession with her. I find her fascinating. Her dress sense seems so... I just threw this on, but she always looks great. Her hair sometimes looks like... I've just rolled out of bed, but look fantastic and I couldn't name another person who could pull it off. Her acting career has definatly been varied but she is SO talented. One of my favourite celebrities.

I'm getting withdrawel symptoms from lack-of shopping. You know what I mean? The shakes, feeling very sorry for yourself and bored with everything you own? Just me?! I haven't bought anything in such a long time that I am now starting to feel like I would forget what stores to go in. Things seem to be looking up though. I've heard that the job I was supposed to start in October ( >:( - my angry face! ) might be ready for me next month - pause for your excitement for me!. This not only means that I will once again be earing a wage, it means that I will be moving in with my boyfriend and that everything is going to change. It seems so far away until the words escape my mouth or I read it back to myself when I type it. And it in no way feels r e a l yet. I think that even if I wait until I'm 30, I wouldn't want to leave the house that I've been raised in. 20 years is a long time so I am facing some anxiety issues at the moment, as I do with EVERYTHING in my life. My boyfriend on the other hand is counting the seconds which is very helpful and lovely.

Four Three days in counting.

I will no longer be in my teen years. Eeek. What will be my excuse then for childish demands or chaotic behaviour?? Everyone I have known has always said that I have always been much maturer than my age and now I feel as though I am mentally the age that I should be. I dont feel like a 45 year old inside a 16 year olds body. Am I having a pre-mid life crisis?! Only 20 or so years early. I think that 2010 is going to be a big year for me. Actually, thats an understatement. I think it's going to be huge. Am I prepared you ask? No. I am the sort of person who always expects the worst. The worst in people and life. This is looked upon as a bad thing but I disagree. I think that if you are always prepared for the worst, then if it happens you shrug it off because you expected it, and if it doesn't then you can smile and wait for the next kick up the backside. I was kind of hoping that I would grow out of this "negativity" as it's so often called, no such luck yet. But I'll keep you posted. Anyone know of a fairy god mother or genie I can borrow?? I'll be your bestest friend ;)

I've realised that I need to decide on a colour sceme for my new room. I'll paint you a little picture (punn intended!). It's an average size room, hard wood floor, a little alcove that can be used to store things inside, a mini radiator that is pretty much me-sized, and currently is painted 'white chocolate'. (Will try to post some pics to give you a visual) This room it going to be where all my things will go. As I will be sharing a bedroom with my boyfriend, all my clothes, make up, shoes, handbags... You get the picture, will be going into what is now being called my 'dressing room' or 'gigntic walk in wardrobe'. I'm not complaining in the slightest but it is making me scratch my head when thinking of the possibilities. For years my bedroom has been either pink or lilac so I'd like to steer away from those. I also don't think that a heavy or dark colour would be a good choice as it might make the room look tiny. To be honest, I think that I'm leaning towards a dove grey or just plain old white. HELP.